With all these biopics coming to the big screen in 2018, I have been for the first time, really taking in what power could be, what making it big could be and what success could be. That is changing something inside.
I was always afraid of success, thinking I couldn't make it, that people wouldn't want what I had. I did know that what I had, had personal value to me, but, as far as extrinsic worth was concerned..... I 'knew' I had none.
No one, I thought could understand me. A part of me, for various mostly traumatic, reasons, closed down very young. And, that, as far as my body/mind knows, is all there is to it. My nervous system, is in complete flight mode, at least as far as making it big is concerned.That body/mind worldview has kept me small and fearful, not to mention poor.
A movement from Earth into my body is beginning now though. A swirling, dark mysterious energy that I can feel in my belly. It's low, and enquiring, but not arrogant. It could almost be called intelligent love, with some peace thrown in for good measure. What that has to do with power, true power, I don't yet know. But, my body does x
I was always afraid of success, thinking I couldn't make it, that people wouldn't want what I had. I did know that what I had, had personal value to me, but, as far as extrinsic worth was concerned..... I 'knew' I had none.
No one, I thought could understand me. A part of me, for various mostly traumatic, reasons, closed down very young. And, that, as far as my body/mind knows, is all there is to it. My nervous system, is in complete flight mode, at least as far as making it big is concerned.That body/mind worldview has kept me small and fearful, not to mention poor.
A movement from Earth into my body is beginning now though. A swirling, dark mysterious energy that I can feel in my belly. It's low, and enquiring, but not arrogant. It could almost be called intelligent love, with some peace thrown in for good measure. What that has to do with power, true power, I don't yet know. But, my body does x
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