What is unique about myself? I really don't know. I mean, obviously, I am unique. A unique coming together of infinite streams of consciousnness, radiating back to the dawn of time, and on For EVER. Ever mixing, resonating, shifting. But, it's that mix that is unique at any given moment in time. Not me that is unique. It's not 'my' pain, 'my' intelligence, 'my
fear ect, they seem to be impersonal building blocks. Now why this process should be so painful, so messy, so unclear, I really don't know, but I do know that I just don't have a clue.
As for positively manifesting - ha.... if only. If only I could order up a delicious menu from the tapestry of life. Well, who knows, maybe I can :-) one day x
Tuesday, 6 November 2018
Monday, 5 November 2018
cold baked beans
I am tired, tired of not wanting to cook for myself only. I just cant be bothered. If i had a partner I would cook, or even a flatmate. But, this living on my own, meh. So, I eat grapes, i eat beans, I eat dark, healthy chocolate, gluten-free pasta and salad.
Is this good enough though? It is quite healthy food I suppose. At least I buy beans.
It's my anxiety that stops me from cooking I know that. I know I need help to calm my nervous system down, and I know that few, if any are in any way, shape or form, willing to give that help, so I am kind of stuck, forever reeling round in a salt shaker of anxiety, day after day, whirling, wailing, stressing and sadding, oh
Is this good enough though? It is quite healthy food I suppose. At least I buy beans.
It's my anxiety that stops me from cooking I know that. I know I need help to calm my nervous system down, and I know that few, if any are in any way, shape or form, willing to give that help, so I am kind of stuck, forever reeling round in a salt shaker of anxiety, day after day, whirling, wailing, stressing and sadding, oh
Sunday, 4 November 2018
Feeling rubbish this morning. I usually do. I wake up tight, anxious, disconnected. I then work with my negative feelings, I always love my body and feelings as they are. I sometimes try active imagination. This morning, for example, I asked what would heal my body and mind in the real world if anything would. I became clear that an oil bath would help, warm walnut oil, massaged deep into my anxieties and tensions. Then the essential oil of geranium, i could literally smell it. Then, for some reason to be covered with the energy of icing sugar which put a lively orange flow into my body, very refreshing.
Healed, healing and healing on
blessings x
Healed, healing and healing on
blessings x
Saturday, 3 November 2018
Power, success and judgementality
With all these biopics coming to the big screen in 2018, I have been for the first time, really taking in what power could be, what making it big could be and what success could be. That is changing something inside.
I was always afraid of success, thinking I couldn't make it, that people wouldn't want what I had. I did know that what I had, had personal value to me, but, as far as extrinsic worth was concerned..... I 'knew' I had none.
No one, I thought could understand me. A part of me, for various mostly traumatic, reasons, closed down very young. And, that, as far as my body/mind knows, is all there is to it. My nervous system, is in complete flight mode, at least as far as making it big is concerned.That body/mind worldview has kept me small and fearful, not to mention poor.
A movement from Earth into my body is beginning now though. A swirling, dark mysterious energy that I can feel in my belly. It's low, and enquiring, but not arrogant. It could almost be called intelligent love, with some peace thrown in for good measure. What that has to do with power, true power, I don't yet know. But, my body does x
I was always afraid of success, thinking I couldn't make it, that people wouldn't want what I had. I did know that what I had, had personal value to me, but, as far as extrinsic worth was concerned..... I 'knew' I had none.
No one, I thought could understand me. A part of me, for various mostly traumatic, reasons, closed down very young. And, that, as far as my body/mind knows, is all there is to it. My nervous system, is in complete flight mode, at least as far as making it big is concerned.That body/mind worldview has kept me small and fearful, not to mention poor.
A movement from Earth into my body is beginning now though. A swirling, dark mysterious energy that I can feel in my belly. It's low, and enquiring, but not arrogant. It could almost be called intelligent love, with some peace thrown in for good measure. What that has to do with power, true power, I don't yet know. But, my body does x
Friday, 2 November 2018
What can you do when something in the external world is irritating you?
What can you do when something in the external world is irritating you?
First, breathe consciously. This allows the body, mind, heart and mind to be nurtured, softened and opened, even if you feel very bad.
Feel the emotions, thoughts and negativity that underlie the frustration, no matter how dark, messy, deep and trance-fixed. Let go into and through these. Offer them Love. Allow the mess to soften and transform.
Send the feedback to your body through your mind and breathe in that you are loved and safe. Continue to allow emotions and feelings to arise.
Invite healing, and breathe it into your body/mind.
Then be open to potentially seeing more.
Continue to breathe.
When you are ready, intend new perspectives and solutions. Stay connected to your breathing and listen for insights arising in your body/mind that offer new information on the situation you face.
You could even try inviting in new programmes based on safety and tenderness. See/feel what arises in response.
Breathe...
First, breathe consciously. This allows the body, mind, heart and mind to be nurtured, softened and opened, even if you feel very bad.
Feel the emotions, thoughts and negativity that underlie the frustration, no matter how dark, messy, deep and trance-fixed. Let go into and through these. Offer them Love. Allow the mess to soften and transform.
Send the feedback to your body through your mind and breathe in that you are loved and safe. Continue to allow emotions and feelings to arise.
Invite healing, and breathe it into your body/mind.
Then be open to potentially seeing more.
Continue to breathe.
Breathe...
A calmness has descended over Ulverston. The skies are blue. It's cold, but happy. The deep vibrancy of life is available - in this moment - now. Muscles relax, we breath deeply. Gratitude filters through body and soul, deep into the cellular matrix, the cellular matrix that is the basis of our life and well-being, our heart and soul.
Yoga class - or miracles each day. A calmness descends.
Yoga class - or miracles each day. A calmness descends.
Friday, 23 April 2010
VOTING IN MAY - SOME POINTS TO CONSIDER...
It seems to be true that our economy runs as a 'machine of more.'
We manufacture not only goods and services, but also the demand for them. Consumers can be readily influenced to buy products and services they don’t want or need.
Voters can be influenced too, even to misplaced loyalties and hatred even of those who most closely represent their interests. Because of the effectiveness of media manipulation, the popular will can, to a significant degree, be bought and sold. The processes are so deeply ingrained, we are by and large blind to the forces acting on us and through us.
For example, it was only after I wrote this blog piece, that I realised that I too am using my powers of persuasion to get you to 'percieve' my perspective as the 'valid' one. The buddha says 'question everything, even this, what I am telling you' That is, (in my opinion) very good advice indeed.
And yet - we do indeed try to reason for ourselves; we are not blind automatons. But the power of well-funded advertising and PR efforts (even when they are dishonest and destructive) is now much stronger & more insidious than is generally understood.
We live in a sea of advertising and public relations messages that are specifically designed (scientifically reverse-engineered, in fact) to influence us outside our conscious awareness.
These communications have enormous influence over our votes, buying decisions and attitudes, even though we think we’re aware of them and are disregarding their influence. They affect all of us, although some studies show they may be more likely to influence younger folks. It is this process that determines the results of most elections. We shrug it off and minimize it at our peril.
The game board is currently stacked in a way that exaggerates the influence of money, politics and corporate special interests. Conversely, the deck is stacked against principled political activism.
"Profitable companies, their executives, and well-to-do investors all understand the wisdom of contributing money to parties and candidates who are sympathetic to their interests. Politicians must raise money if they want to get elected, re-elected, and wield influence. It seems as though no one has any real choice in these matters; everyone is simply fulfilling the inherited obligations of his or her role.” says Terry Patten - 2004.
This from Johan Hari at the Independent, April 2010, - "Every day in this country, two big forces artificially drag the British government way to the right of the British people, making it enact policies that benefit a small, rich elite at the expense of the rest. We are not supposed to notice this, never mind try to change it. Yet suddenly, in this election, those forces have been exposed.
To understand what these forces are, you have to start with a fact that is usually kept obscure: Britain is a country with a large liberal-left majority. Eighty-five per cent of us say the gap between rich and poor should be "much smaller", and a majority would get there by introducing a maximum wage that caps the incomes of the rich at £135,000 a year. Fifty-eight per cent support a dramatic increase in the minimum wage. Fifty-eight per cent want to ditch Trident - an act of unilateral nuclear disarmament. Seventy-seven per cent want to bring the troops home from Afghanistan now, or within a year at the latest. Fifty-three per cent say people come out of prison worse than they go in, and would rather spend money on more youth clubs than on more prison places.
Across most policies, our views are to the left of all three parties. (These statistics are all from Mori, Ipsos or YouGov polls.) And Brits hold these views even though they are constantly told by the media that they are marginal, impossible, or mad.
The British media is overwhelmingly owned by right-wing billionaires who order their newspapers to build up the politicians who serve their interests, and marginalise or rubbish the politicians who serve the public interest.
David Yelland, the former editor of the Sun, bravely confessed this week that as soon as he took his post, he was told the Liberal Dems had to be "the invisible party, purposely edged off the paper's pages and ignored". Only a tiny spectrum of opinion was permitted. Everyone to the left of Tony Blair (not hard) had to be rubbished - even when their policies spoke for a majority of British people.
The TV debates, then, were a very rare moment in which a slightly more liberal-left voice could speak to the public without the distorting frame of pre-emptive abuse and distortion. The window of permissible opinion was opened a little - and people responded with a wave of enthusiasm...
The reaction of the right-wing press to briefly losing the ability to frame how politicians address the public has been a frenzied panic worthy of Basil Fawlty. They have "revealed" Clegg is a paedophile-cuddling, Gaddafi-licking foreigner and crook who wishes we had lost the Second World War. But now - for a change - people can test the smears against what they see and hear with their own eyes, unmediated, on TV.
For a moment, the media demonisation of the liberal-left was switched off in favour of equal time and open access - and it revolutionised our politics. If this happened day in, day out, how would our national conversation change?"
David Yelland (ex-editor of the Sun) again - " My job was to pick out people the country could judge to make us all feel better. One day it would be a paedophile, another a politician. But what right did I have to judge? What right do any of us? The dividing line between privilege and underclass is perilously narrow.
I cannot speak for other editors but at the Sun I was actually paid to rush to judgment, paid to lash out and attack. I had 320 people on staff who were paid to agree with me...
I was untouchable. I was cocooned and protected, a "made man", an unelected member of a tiny elite that runs the country and never has to pay a price....
Just before we returned from New York I had found out my natural father was an Irish radical with a mistrust of the British, and my mum a children's writer. They had lived in bohemian style in North Yorkshire, they had both marched at Aldermaston. For the first time I understood myself.
Here I was slam-bang in the middle of what Hillary Clinton once dubbed "the right-wing conspiracy". I felt like a double agent. I began to fall in love with the very things I was supposed to oppose."
In my opinion, it doesn't take a genius to work out that something is very out of balance - even wrong. If you care about the evolution of the planet and yourself, we need to make ourselves and others more aware of this, bringing our own influence, intelligence and persuasion to the table, far more forcefully than we are currently doing.
An Evolutionary Civic Duty
All of this compromises the ability of our society to make important choices intelligently. Democratic rule has serious problems, but the problems of a corporate plutocracy are of a whole different—and frightening—order.
Although most of us live in the UK, we live in a world system, as shown by the economic meltdown.
As conscious, responsible citizens we need to respond as effectively, as we can. This is by no means easy, and there is no one way to do it. However, consider
How have your emotions and beliefs been swayed by media and commercial interests in the last year or two? Personally I have felt shocked and powerless at how easy it seems to whip a populace up into a state of discontent, and how easily most of us, do indeed - to date - buy into it. Awareness is key, activism is also important.
Also, I believe, the philosophies and practises of yoga are designed to help us move from the lower levels of judgement, blame and reactivity, into the higher levels of taking more responsibility for ourselves, and for our role in society. Ie, to turn into better, stronger and more worthwhile individuals.
May sanity be restored, know it will take us to restore it, let us be willing to make that choice and fight for it.
Action plan
Identify where you may have been unduly influenced by the media. Also identify your circle of influence - Family? Friends? Workplace? Community? Most of us don’t feel really powerful, yet we all make a difference. In the end, it is us reclaiming our own power that will stop the rot. This is only one newsletter. Where can you make your voice heard, with integrity and respect of other opinions? and then make your voice heard. Write to newspapers, your MP, join your local council group. When you can, where you can, do what you can.
Make choices that count, support your truth, work with friends, reclaim your voice, learn how to influence, BE THE CHANGE - and be very, very certain, if it is you that is willing to be the change, we need you more now than ever before.
Of Interest
1) From the Sunday Times April 25 2010.
"The richest people in Britain have seen a record boom in wealth over the past year. Their fortunes have soared by 30% even though much of the UK is struggling to recover from recession and the near-collapse of the banking system.
It is the largest rise in wealth since the list was first published 21 years ago. Much of the increase is a result of the rebound in stock markets and property values after the government injected hundreds of billions of pounds into banks and the wider economy to stave off collapse.
The 2010 Sunday Times Rich List, published today, reveals that the 1,000 richest people in the country increased their wealth by £77 billion last year, bringing their total wealth to £335.5 billion — equal to more than one-third of the national debt.
The number of billionaires has risen from 43 to 53, with nine seeing their wealth rise by £1 billion or more during the past 12 months."
2) Supreme Court Ruling in the US
The Supreme Court’s ruling in the US a few months ago swept away any control of financial donations to parties, (in affect since 1909 in the US). This tilts the game board way further.
Without demonizing corporations, we can see that they exercise their political influence on behalf of their economic advantages and interests, which are often (although not always) different from the best interests of the populace as a whole. Sometimes, even often, they are also unprincipled.
Even with the surge of citizen involvement he catalyzed in 2008, it is doubtful that Barack Obama could have been elected president under the campaign finance rules handed down in this judgement.
In his dissent, Justice John Paul Stevens wrote, “The Court’s ruling threatens to undermine the integrity of elected institutions across the Nation.” President Obama summed it up pretty well: “With its ruling , the Supreme Court has given a green light to a new stampede of special interest money in our politics.”
This article is losely based on one written by the thoughtful Terry Patten. Visit http://www.integralheart.com/ for his article and more.
Is yoga for you? Why not try a class and find out. Visit www.loveyoga.co.uk for more information
We manufacture not only goods and services, but also the demand for them. Consumers can be readily influenced to buy products and services they don’t want or need.
Voters can be influenced too, even to misplaced loyalties and hatred even of those who most closely represent their interests. Because of the effectiveness of media manipulation, the popular will can, to a significant degree, be bought and sold. The processes are so deeply ingrained, we are by and large blind to the forces acting on us and through us.
For example, it was only after I wrote this blog piece, that I realised that I too am using my powers of persuasion to get you to 'percieve' my perspective as the 'valid' one. The buddha says 'question everything, even this, what I am telling you' That is, (in my opinion) very good advice indeed.
And yet - we do indeed try to reason for ourselves; we are not blind automatons. But the power of well-funded advertising and PR efforts (even when they are dishonest and destructive) is now much stronger & more insidious than is generally understood.
We live in a sea of advertising and public relations messages that are specifically designed (scientifically reverse-engineered, in fact) to influence us outside our conscious awareness.
These communications have enormous influence over our votes, buying decisions and attitudes, even though we think we’re aware of them and are disregarding their influence. They affect all of us, although some studies show they may be more likely to influence younger folks. It is this process that determines the results of most elections. We shrug it off and minimize it at our peril.
The game board is currently stacked in a way that exaggerates the influence of money, politics and corporate special interests. Conversely, the deck is stacked against principled political activism.
"Profitable companies, their executives, and well-to-do investors all understand the wisdom of contributing money to parties and candidates who are sympathetic to their interests. Politicians must raise money if they want to get elected, re-elected, and wield influence. It seems as though no one has any real choice in these matters; everyone is simply fulfilling the inherited obligations of his or her role.” says Terry Patten - 2004.
This from Johan Hari at the Independent, April 2010, - "Every day in this country, two big forces artificially drag the British government way to the right of the British people, making it enact policies that benefit a small, rich elite at the expense of the rest. We are not supposed to notice this, never mind try to change it. Yet suddenly, in this election, those forces have been exposed.
To understand what these forces are, you have to start with a fact that is usually kept obscure: Britain is a country with a large liberal-left majority. Eighty-five per cent of us say the gap between rich and poor should be "much smaller", and a majority would get there by introducing a maximum wage that caps the incomes of the rich at £135,000 a year. Fifty-eight per cent support a dramatic increase in the minimum wage. Fifty-eight per cent want to ditch Trident - an act of unilateral nuclear disarmament. Seventy-seven per cent want to bring the troops home from Afghanistan now, or within a year at the latest. Fifty-three per cent say people come out of prison worse than they go in, and would rather spend money on more youth clubs than on more prison places.
Across most policies, our views are to the left of all three parties. (These statistics are all from Mori, Ipsos or YouGov polls.) And Brits hold these views even though they are constantly told by the media that they are marginal, impossible, or mad.
The British media is overwhelmingly owned by right-wing billionaires who order their newspapers to build up the politicians who serve their interests, and marginalise or rubbish the politicians who serve the public interest.
David Yelland, the former editor of the Sun, bravely confessed this week that as soon as he took his post, he was told the Liberal Dems had to be "the invisible party, purposely edged off the paper's pages and ignored". Only a tiny spectrum of opinion was permitted. Everyone to the left of Tony Blair (not hard) had to be rubbished - even when their policies spoke for a majority of British people.
The TV debates, then, were a very rare moment in which a slightly more liberal-left voice could speak to the public without the distorting frame of pre-emptive abuse and distortion. The window of permissible opinion was opened a little - and people responded with a wave of enthusiasm...
The reaction of the right-wing press to briefly losing the ability to frame how politicians address the public has been a frenzied panic worthy of Basil Fawlty. They have "revealed" Clegg is a paedophile-cuddling, Gaddafi-licking foreigner and crook who wishes we had lost the Second World War. But now - for a change - people can test the smears against what they see and hear with their own eyes, unmediated, on TV.
For a moment, the media demonisation of the liberal-left was switched off in favour of equal time and open access - and it revolutionised our politics. If this happened day in, day out, how would our national conversation change?"
David Yelland (ex-editor of the Sun) again - " My job was to pick out people the country could judge to make us all feel better. One day it would be a paedophile, another a politician. But what right did I have to judge? What right do any of us? The dividing line between privilege and underclass is perilously narrow.
I cannot speak for other editors but at the Sun I was actually paid to rush to judgment, paid to lash out and attack. I had 320 people on staff who were paid to agree with me...
I was untouchable. I was cocooned and protected, a "made man", an unelected member of a tiny elite that runs the country and never has to pay a price....
Just before we returned from New York I had found out my natural father was an Irish radical with a mistrust of the British, and my mum a children's writer. They had lived in bohemian style in North Yorkshire, they had both marched at Aldermaston. For the first time I understood myself.
Here I was slam-bang in the middle of what Hillary Clinton once dubbed "the right-wing conspiracy". I felt like a double agent. I began to fall in love with the very things I was supposed to oppose."
In my opinion, it doesn't take a genius to work out that something is very out of balance - even wrong. If you care about the evolution of the planet and yourself, we need to make ourselves and others more aware of this, bringing our own influence, intelligence and persuasion to the table, far more forcefully than we are currently doing.
An Evolutionary Civic Duty
All of this compromises the ability of our society to make important choices intelligently. Democratic rule has serious problems, but the problems of a corporate plutocracy are of a whole different—and frightening—order.
Although most of us live in the UK, we live in a world system, as shown by the economic meltdown.
As conscious, responsible citizens we need to respond as effectively, as we can. This is by no means easy, and there is no one way to do it. However, consider
How have your emotions and beliefs been swayed by media and commercial interests in the last year or two? Personally I have felt shocked and powerless at how easy it seems to whip a populace up into a state of discontent, and how easily most of us, do indeed - to date - buy into it. Awareness is key, activism is also important.
Also, I believe, the philosophies and practises of yoga are designed to help us move from the lower levels of judgement, blame and reactivity, into the higher levels of taking more responsibility for ourselves, and for our role in society. Ie, to turn into better, stronger and more worthwhile individuals.
May sanity be restored, know it will take us to restore it, let us be willing to make that choice and fight for it.
Action plan
Identify where you may have been unduly influenced by the media. Also identify your circle of influence - Family? Friends? Workplace? Community? Most of us don’t feel really powerful, yet we all make a difference. In the end, it is us reclaiming our own power that will stop the rot. This is only one newsletter. Where can you make your voice heard, with integrity and respect of other opinions? and then make your voice heard. Write to newspapers, your MP, join your local council group. When you can, where you can, do what you can.
Make choices that count, support your truth, work with friends, reclaim your voice, learn how to influence, BE THE CHANGE - and be very, very certain, if it is you that is willing to be the change, we need you more now than ever before.
Of Interest
1) From the Sunday Times April 25 2010.
"The richest people in Britain have seen a record boom in wealth over the past year. Their fortunes have soared by 30% even though much of the UK is struggling to recover from recession and the near-collapse of the banking system.
It is the largest rise in wealth since the list was first published 21 years ago. Much of the increase is a result of the rebound in stock markets and property values after the government injected hundreds of billions of pounds into banks and the wider economy to stave off collapse.
The 2010 Sunday Times Rich List, published today, reveals that the 1,000 richest people in the country increased their wealth by £77 billion last year, bringing their total wealth to £335.5 billion — equal to more than one-third of the national debt.
The number of billionaires has risen from 43 to 53, with nine seeing their wealth rise by £1 billion or more during the past 12 months."
2) Supreme Court Ruling in the US
The Supreme Court’s ruling in the US a few months ago swept away any control of financial donations to parties, (in affect since 1909 in the US). This tilts the game board way further.
Without demonizing corporations, we can see that they exercise their political influence on behalf of their economic advantages and interests, which are often (although not always) different from the best interests of the populace as a whole. Sometimes, even often, they are also unprincipled.
Even with the surge of citizen involvement he catalyzed in 2008, it is doubtful that Barack Obama could have been elected president under the campaign finance rules handed down in this judgement.
In his dissent, Justice John Paul Stevens wrote, “The Court’s ruling threatens to undermine the integrity of elected institutions across the Nation.” President Obama summed it up pretty well: “With its ruling , the Supreme Court has given a green light to a new stampede of special interest money in our politics.”
This article is losely based on one written by the thoughtful Terry Patten. Visit http://www.integralheart.com/ for his article and more.
Is yoga for you? Why not try a class and find out. Visit www.loveyoga.co.uk for more information
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